Fighting for Rose Garden Sanatorium!

Yesterday I got some ‘bad’ news. It wasn’t bad in the sense that I was faced with criticism, it’s more that I didn’t get through to the long-list on the Watty Awards 2018… I know it sounds silly, it’s just WattPad… and now that I have had time to evaluate everything, I do find it silly I was so upset, but let me explain…

When I was a young girl, I was very shy. I was so shy, in fact, that I was bullied at school. It affected me so much that I refused to talk. I’m not entirely sure why, but I think it was a ‘cry for help’. This issue spread into my life at secondary school and the only way I was able to communicate with people was to talk quietly. I didn’t like to be heard, in case I was bullied.

I began The Girl Who Whispered.

Because of this, I had many issues, and my confidence was one of them. I lacked confidence. Long story short, I am forever trying to improve my confidence… becoming an author is EXTREMELY nerve-racking for me. I’m basically putting myself out there for criticism and when I’m faced with criticism, it is so much harder for me to bare.

Alongside this, I always doubt myself, I always think I’m not good enough, and when I don’t get a lot of ‘support’, I become quite despondent… I can also lash out and seem like I’m having a moan at people, when in reality, it’s not people it’s me. It’s my own insecurities.

Anyway, back to the WattPad Awards. If you don’t know what WattPad is, it’s an online community for writers and readers. You can read book for free, one chapter at a time, and writers can also use it to gain a fan-base for their work. It’s an extremely difficult platform to get recognition, and I’m slowly building up my ‘fan-base’ on at least a few of my works.

WattPad do awards, sometimes they’re little community driven ones from fellow WattPad authors/readers, but there are large awards that are run by WattPad themselves. The Watty Awards is one such large award.

I submitted my BEST work, Rose Garden Sanatorium to the award, I posted new chapters so that it had more chance of winning, I did everything by the book. I had a LOT of faith in it.

Yesterday, WattPad annonced their long-listed authors, those that go through to the next stage. Rose Garden Sanatorium did not make it. I was gutted. My confidence was knocked. I was doubting my abilities as an author. For me, this isn’t just a pin-pick in the side where I brush it off and get over it, my confidence was sorely hit, it felt like someone had slammed a door right in my face.

BUT… since a few people have been very kind, one person even said they’re surprised it DIDN’T get through, and another lady even said she was looking forward to it being published so she can have a copy herself to read… I’ve decided to push forwards and move on. I need to get this series done.

If JK Rowling faced lots of rejections… there’s still hope.

In the mean-time, my thoughts about WattPad aren’t the kindest right now… considering just deleting my account and focusing my attention elsewhere instead.

 

Copy of Rose-Garden-Sanatorium-full

This new thing called Steemit – earn to write!

So, I came across this website a while ago, called ‘Steemit’. A friend of mine introduced me to it. And it’s not bad! You actually earn money for blogging.

You can blog about anything, from photography and art, some people blog about cryptocurrencies and a lot of people, like myself, use it to blog about writing. I’ve posted a short story, wrote about how I create book cover designs, and posted up samples of my book(s).

I don’t know much about cryptocurrencies, but this is real money that can be converted into bitcoin and then you can subsequently sell into real money such as USD or GBP.

Only, I’ve found it extremely difficult, as a noobie in cryptocurrencies, to convert this steem and steem dollars into GBP (I’m British, don’t judge me!).

Now, it’s not as easy as going into your Steemit account and just selecting an option to cash out into your account, you have to use a website called blocktrades to transfer the steem or steem dollars into bitcoin and it transfers it into another account such as CoinBase. Bitcoin is therefore now in your CoinBase account!

Only, I’ve had massive issues getting my PayPal connected up to my CoinBase account, so seem to have hit a block in this cryptocurrency road!

I have the option to add a bank account, but to verify this bank account, I have to transfer a small fee to a bank in Estonia (which I will get charged for!)

Someone has mentioned that you can use another account called Wirex, not me, because I’m in the UK!

Or another one is Payaz, and I have no idea where my wallet address is to put into Blocktrades! If there is one at all!

So, watch this space, I’ve posted another blog post on my Steemit account asking for help!

If you know the answer to this, please do let me know! I’m tearing my hair out!


If you’re on steemit or your interested in steemit, do check out my blogĀ here.